Falling...hard.

I'm not sure about all that snow, but being with you was wonderful.

Well, some days I think the radio is playing the soundtrack of my life. I wish that I could come up with some of the wonderful little one-liners in songs. They seem to describe my every feeling so well. I am ever hoping that I can express my feelings, but they never seem to come out quite right. I feel like I have a song for every thought I've had today, which are all wonderfully happy, of course...all thanks to you. ;)

So, as I'm trying to think of how to tell I'm falling, all I can do is think of songs, poems; those one-liners that will say it for me until I have the courage, and creativity to say it myself.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0wdHYckudCU

Well...

Looking back on this semester, I have realized how lucky I am. God has closed doors, but opened so many windows. I realize that I'm never going to be happy all the time, but I am now to the point where I can see the good in the past, present, and future. I want to be happy and have been making the conscious effort to do so. I have the best friends surrounding me (even as we speak), to celebrate the smallest great things in life like a good grade on a paper, sleeping in, or finally being done with a professor.

I am just truly loving life. I have so many people to be thankful for. A simple thank you would never suffice for all the happiness that you have brought me this year.

So, let's get on with this wonderful day...

dreaming...

"Bigger dreams come from smaller things baby. Yeah, maybe we are a little crazy, but I see that look in your eye and I can tell you're ready to roll. I just need to know how far do you want to go? How far do you want to go?"

Life is going so right. Lord, I thank you for the blessings that you give me everyday.

Even through the crazy, busy, hustle bustle of life, I can see how things are falling into place. I have such special individuals in my life that constantly remind me how lucky I am just to be alive.

A smile from a child, a hot cup of coffee, painted nails, or a sweet movie are a few of the things that I am thankful for today. The day isn't over and I am so thankful.

a letter to you

Dear __________,

I'm not sure if we've met yet, but I am completely in love with you (or someday I will be at least). I look for you everyday, but I'm not sure if I see you. I'll pick up my phone to dial your number just to chat, but I never know what it is. You are very elusive, but I can only imagine how wonderful it will be when I meet you. I pray for you everyday because I know you do the same, and our wonderful God knows your name. He has graciously and lovingly placed us together to start a wonderful life, but maybe it just hasn't hit us both yet.

I want you to know that I am thinking of you everyday. I cannot wait to hold your hand, if I haven't yet. I cannot wait to tell everyone about you, unless they already know. Somewhere out there, you're looking for me too. I'll find you someday, and I am being so patient until then (or trying).

I wonder what you do with your every single day. Are you a student or are you already out of school? Or are you a free spirit just wandering around wherever the day takes you? Do you like to watch movies or just sit and listen to the radio? I do hope that you love the sound and beauty of a storm like I do...

Know that I love you and cannot wait to meet you, unless we already have. In God's time, this will be wonderful and the most perfect gift that has ever been given to the both of us. I warn you, I'm terrible at relationships and they scare me to death. I am not afraid of loving because I do so without question. I am trusting and a hopeless romantic (exactly why I am writing this letter). God will lead me to you, in his time...

I love you,
your future wife

"Would you catch a couple thousand fireflies? Yeah, and put them in a lamp to light my world? All dressed up in a tux and a bowtie, hand delivered to a lonely girl, to a lonely, lonely girl..."

Just a thought...if you want to talk to someone...never hesitate...you never know how good it could be. Don't worry about it. They will listen, good or bad. DO NOT be afraid. Do it.

So, a couple things Ladies...

1. You are beautiful. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

2. On that note, you do not NEED anyone to tell you that fact.

3. God made us beautiful and strong women. Yes, we worry, but there is no need to.

4. HE has a plan, whether or not we want to acknowledge it yet.

5. This plan may not be yours. It sure as well wasn't mine. ;)

6. Don't let yourself block Him out. (I really need to work on this myself. I should be putting all of my burdens on him with no question.)

Just try and remember all of this. I mostly did this for myself, but hey, that's ok!