Oh, I've gotta go and find me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kOu8WVciHz8

Yes, I realize that I post quite a few songs, but lately this is me. And before we get started with the "Ooohhh, who is she talking about"s? Let me state: this is not about a boy.

For too long I've waited for someone to tell me who I am. I've waited for that to fall into my lap. Well here's my chance to really find out who that is. No distractions, no rules, no one telling me who I should or shouldn't be.

So, here's to me really being me.

Skipping Stones

Well, I am up entirely way too late, (thank goodness I don't have an 8:00 a.m. tomorrow...) but I'd like to say I can't stop smiling.

As you know, I'm not patient...BY ANY MEANS. This, I'm going all in for though. 110%. Going for Gold.

There's an easy feeling that I can't quite put into words; a peace that makes this simple. It's like having something comforting, like a favorite milkshake or a hand to hold.

So, I'll be looking for those perfect, smooth stones, to skip straight to you.

just a thought.

I read a quote once: "Love in its essence is spiritual fire."

Now, I will be the first to tell you that I am NOT in love. Puppy love, MAYBE, but I'm a little jaded on the idea of love. This quote though is interesting...

Spiritual fire? Yeah, I'll agree with that. Fire that burns you up and leaves you with nothing. Fire that burns you up and leaves you wanting more. Fire that burns you up and in immense pain, wanting to forget, but yet you'll always have the scar from where it was.

Now, I'll fall in love again, I'll guarantee you that. As hard as I try not to, I'm sure I will.

Until then, anyone know where I can buy a firefighter's suit?

Mhm, my sisters, mhm my sisters...

Formal Recruitment starts...TODAY! :) Good luck to all of the girls going through. I hope you find somewhere where you feel truly at home!

The story of my life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xCj9dRu0ksM

I don't want to be the girl that runs only to have no one chase her. Catch me.

I need to do things for me sometimes. Only I don't know what I want half the time.

I need to say the things I mean when I want to say them and not be scared to be outspoken. (Yeah, that'll be hard, because I've already failed. I'll keep trying though.) So many things that I want to say, I'm frightened what they will think, what you will say, what the look on your face will tell me.

Let's see, uh...

Resolutions? Bring it on.

Falling...hard.

I'm not sure about all that snow, but being with you was wonderful.

Well, some days I think the radio is playing the soundtrack of my life. I wish that I could come up with some of the wonderful little one-liners in songs. They seem to describe my every feeling so well. I am ever hoping that I can express my feelings, but they never seem to come out quite right. I feel like I have a song for every thought I've had today, which are all wonderfully happy, of course...all thanks to you. ;)

So, as I'm trying to think of how to tell I'm falling, all I can do is think of songs, poems; those one-liners that will say it for me until I have the courage, and creativity to say it myself.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0wdHYckudCU